Twenty Ten.

I'll have to say that last year was probably one of the worst years of my entire life so far. Mainly because since last February my dad was having an Affair with some woman who he met on Facebook that happened to live up the road from us. He introduced her to us and was secretly sleeping with her and even now that we all know what he's being doing. All meaning the whole village, he still continues to see her even though my mum has taken him back numerous times. And Still he doesn't seem to understand what he's done. I could write pages and pages into the shit he's done but I'm not prepared to give details like that.
My mum was write though, saying that it would scar me and effect me badly as i get older. At the moment i just don't trust anyone, especially Men for that matter - I cry most nights now, before I couldn't ever cry because everything was happening to fast. Like standing in the middle of the motorway, cold, alone, lifeless. it's harder as you get older to believe that someone you grew up loving all your life could do such thing and for all this bundle of love turn into one great big ball of Hatred. And it just sucks, because my Dad thinks I've taken sides. And at the end of the day he's screwed this up. it's his fault, especially with the reason he's given us of doing it. I cant stand him very much anymore, honestly i want him to stay away from my mum and for that bitch to stop harassing us. But sometimes i fear it wont.
I need a new start as does my mother. But right now, it's still like last year and i don't even know whats gonna happen.
But anyway, this is a new blog now. A new blog for a more educated brain, a new year... a new heap of emotions and words.
6 days into the new year and here we are. Please have a better year than last or i will sincerely be bummed out.

xoxo C/ZK